justrun-.

stupid potato chips

feeling like an awfully fat blob of fat right now. no thanks to binge session i had yestd. it's always the weekends that kill me. mrrrrfph. yeah well anw had a craving for a cookie so i thought, shouldn't restrain myself (voices from the past were ringing in my head). yeah so i bought my yummy cookie and ate it up thinking "omg when was the last time i ate a cookie". then i was bored so i walked ard and found a red bean bun made of red rice. and i was like "omg it looks so nice i have to eat it" so ohmygawd the next thing i knew i was eating a red bean bun and thinking to myself "this is the best red bean bun i've eaten". crap okay so then i walked into the supermarket cos i was thirsty. got a yoghurt drink but then me being me, could not resist and decided to take a walk down the potatochips aisle thinking i'd find something healthy there. so i found unsalted chips and bought the whole damn packet. that was the beginning of the end.

yes so anw, we went out for dinner at novena. ate thai food. like omg why am i eating thai food for DINNER?! i was not really hungry but my muscles were aching and when my muscles ache i usually eat to take my attn off the pain. (come to think of it, i always eat) yes so there and then, i piled on at least 1000kcals of crap. for DINNER oh gawd what is wrong with me. the food was so good.

brr feeling full and awful we went home. then i sat on my chair watching tv and stressing out about options. this is when the bag of unsalted potato chips came out. and once i started, i could not stop. and the worst part was that it was unsalted! so i couldn't not curb my eating. i mean usually if it's salted then i can stop after a while cos it's too salty for me. but NO! it was unsalted and then everything just went into my mouth :( okay i am so angry at myself now. it was 750kcals of crap into my system. at NIGHT. geez. so that was 1750kcals of food in the evening. hah. shit shit shit.

-curses

nvm. THOU IS SKIPPING LUNCHY TODAY. and i swear, no more of this. whoever brainwashed me to think it was OKAY to eat what i wanted. well nononono that is wrong. i'm going to revert back to the old me. DISSECT FATS WHO CARES. need to lose weight and now i'm quite pissed off at myself.

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ok moving on. wanted to talk about bike trng and how miserably slow i am. omgourd. i was really struggling. like thinking, "crap can i make it to the end.." and i don't usually think that during bike training! now every physical activity is a struggle. wonder how long it'll take me to get back into prev form. very demoralizing. everyone's so fast and i'm just a blubber of fat with max inertia. after i got off from the bike my arse and quadz were sooo sore. could hardly move my legs let alone run. plantar fasciitis is back too.

okay now i feel like throwing up. stupid potato chips i am not going to be such a bitch again. my head hurts. okay byebye.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [09:10]

and took [20060904] strides

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